am i backing off
pushing away

maybe because you never were worth sticking around.

the ones that are worth sticking around.. know it.

you're all fucked.

"I can easily name off the top of my head almost everyone whos fucked everyone else in my group of friends. If you havent been connected that way. everyone else has some distorted and personal opinion of you. Telling you that your haircut obviously means something obscure and artsy and pretentious about yourself. In my head i'm thinking I just don't like to wash it or brush it very often so short makes sense. The same person judging you on your body type a week before. They have a distorted view of what is attractive anyway but it is just another example of this weird incestuous "thing" people have when they are around eachother too much. groups get tight.. too tight.. they split up. they move outward and drag more people in. its a hundred spider webs all sticking to eachother at the ends.

She fucked him, he fucked her friend, we fucked, she fucks her friends old fuck buddy and her best friend is fucking her other friends ex. It goes on this way. every girl is giving dirty looks or privately dealing with the fact that there is no loyalty in the circle. A huge social climb where people are dragging themselves from the bottom of a hundred and fifteen people and desperately trying to climb to the top of the same people over and over. eventually, if you don't just walk away you all are going to kill each other or suffocate from trying too hard. "