pledging my time

it seems to me that a large piece of the human condition is to avoid being alone. face it, no one wants to be alone, no matter how much they say they do. hey, i agree with parts of their argument. i enjoy a lot of alone time, and have slight agoraphobic tendencies... but when it all comes down to it i need compassion and companionship just as much, if not more than just being alone...and i don't think anyone could disagree with that. depending on other people is largely what our society and culture is built upon. teamwork, the barter system, they are still in effect even if the barter has been replaced with paper money. it's still depending on other people like the barter... just in a more uneven way. i'll avoid going off on a tangent and leave it as this: even the declaration of independence took some teamwork.


you can't build something out of nothing.


i need to be focusing my time and energy on more productive thinking. like... reading books that i should have read a long time ago.

i need to just be calm, and grateful, and thankful of everything. i have all five of my senses and i have a few friends and family.


i'm just sick of being shit on. guess that means i need to toughin' up.





-h