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best ever.

its it.

There is a full moon tonight. its beautiful to look at and the perfect temperature to sit outside and just take it all in. let that blue grey light shine over you that outweighs all the discusting yellow lights the city has to offer. the lights that may be amazing on a normal basis cant even come close to the feeling you get when the moon shines on you. So i sit outside in what little of a yard i can call my own (that i share with 6 -10 other people... and wonder why nobody else is out there looking at this beautiful thing. when it comes down to it you dont get to see that many amazing full moons. clouds, sleep, city lights, cold weather take a lot away. i think it would do everyone a great justice to just sit and take in that powerful glow and maybe feel better because they are being filled up with this emotion not linked to people or things but just nature beyond what you normally let crawl into your mind. those are my words for a while. i am going to return to the outside world away from the internet and the cool glow of lcd screens.

pledging my time

it seems to me that a large piece of the human condition is to avoid being alone. face it, no one wants to be alone, no matter how much they say they do. hey, i agree with parts of their argument. i enjoy a lot of alone time, and have slight agoraphobic tendencies... but when it all comes down to it i need compassion and companionship just as much, if not more than just being alone...and i don't think anyone could disagree with that. depending on other people is largely what our society and culture is built upon. teamwork, the barter system, they are still in effect even if the barter has been replaced with paper money. it's still depending on other people like the barter... just in a more uneven way. i'll avoid going off on a tangent and leave it as this: even the declaration of independence took some teamwork.


you can't build something out of nothing.


i need to be focusing my time and energy on more productive thinking. like... reading books that i should have read a long time ago.

i need to just be calm, and grateful, and thankful of everything. i have all five of my senses and i have a few friends and family.


i'm just sick of being shit on. guess that means i need to toughin' up.





-h

meditate.

i want my therapy to be processed.

i want to reflect on how i felt.

i'm documenting myself without paying attention these days.


my creativity comes in waves and flavors.

crunchy nose.

shes crunching her nose on the couch.

did you see his new pic update?

The question has come up once again. How does one aspire to be famous on myspace? Am i missing something? Does spending all your time adding people back on myspace make you lots of money and i just didn't get the memo? If this is the case sign me up. Problem is... its probably not the case. These people just seem to have way too much time on their hands worrying about who reads their "space". Well....? what is the draw here. There are famous myspace people who have nothing interesting about them whatsoever. No "super hip pics" , no interesting career or art. The popular musicians and photographers and such i dont quite mind. its the people who are famous for just being weird.... or ... normal in some cases that freak me out. there are enough people guilty of having a myspace out there but do you really want an uncontrolled ammount of "friends" obsessing over every new picture update and whether you replied to their 72 stalker like messages last month? no thanks, i'll pass.

wake up mr. internet addict.
its myspace and when people see you on the street they dont swoon or take pictures... aside from a freakish few i doubt people even remember who you are because you dont look anything like your pictures on the web.

-ka-th-leeeeeeen

cron hole tossing and beating bitches up.

if there is one thing i am sick of, (only one thing, yeah...right...) it is when people say "everything happens for a reason", which is usually followed by an "i guess" or preceded by a "well, you know" when no, in fact, we do not know. which the "i guess" clearly illustrates. how is "everything happens for a reason" a valid answer, or a valid point to make? how can we even think such a thing and where did it even come from? who started that saying? i mean, of course as far as origin goes it fits in with certain beliefs/faiths, but sweet jesus it is just really disapointing after you give a huge schpeel to someone and then they muster out the very weak "everything happens for a reason".


maybe i'm just sick of it for the time being. because i can understand why someone would say it at times... and of course it always depends on the circumstances, too. but basically i am in a pissy mood and i'm about to go mileena on someone's ass.


in conclusion,
my thumb is pwned and i am teh nerdz.

i also have teh crampz.

feed me caffeine in mass amounts, kthx.



-h