some people know.

that the weird feeling of not knowing where you should be and where you want to be competes with what you think you should be doing and who you want to be near. they all fight and its pretty shitty.

well that is interesting.

when it rains, it pours.

i don't mind one bit.

man we tough.

Have you ever noticed how bizzare hip hop artist's names have become.. well.. have always been. ice tea, ice cube, vanilla ice, .. where was dry ice? How does one named hi-tek.. which presumably is a tough version of high tech think he is tough.. high tech always makes me think of revenge of the nerds and computer science majors... (hrmf.. forget that) how "birdman" is tough.. birdman is like the dude version of catlady and therefore... not cool. actually kind of creepy...

well i guess that we are drowning in no talent wannabe's on the entertainment front these days anyway, all the badass names must already be taken by someone.


just a few thoughts. sorry.

he will always have an unhealthy relationship with his mother

the other day at work i was doing the normal makeover speech i am trained to say and start to help a customer... she had a 3 year old boy with her. apparently asking her three year old if he was hungry meant, hold on a moment while i whip my shit out and start breast feeding without consulting with the person applying makeup to your face in a store... don't mind me.. i'm only trying really hard to ignore the child attached to you're tits, its cool

bowtie.

there are those moments where you have this space in your mind or heart or wherever you keep space for people and its so full its like a balloon but heavy and then it crumbles and is empty for a while. some of that just keeps on filling up again even though you need the space for other things. its like a chair or a bunch of shirts you cant let yourself get rid of even though you dont have the space to keep them.

those moments are the worst, when you think you can finally move new things into that space. and then you cant.

it makes you hate those people and those memories and those feelings because they don't let go. they wont.