So, as the last 4 years of my education, at least for a while come to an end. I am relieved and terrified. It is like Christmas and the day is almost over and there is no more excitement and you don't know what to do or where to start. I heard someone talking about how they have a connection with this place. I honestly have a severe distaste for this building and much of this school. As this all is ending, I find myself thinking that I can come back and print and shoot. The fact of the matter being, I wont be able to, probably ever. This is the end of the line and I realize what people were saying when they said I would miss it. I miss the facilities at my fingertips to do whatever i please. Unfortunately for me, i spent the last 4 years doing work for other people and not myself. Staying in instead of enjoying myself. Cutting myself off for people who will mean nothing to me in another 4 years. I have a million regrets and It is a difficult thing to realize when you are under so much pressure to make work "for yourself' for others. It is the pressure that has made me hate it. I will have to try my best to enjoy what is left of adolescence. What is left of my childhood because the minute i walk across that stage, it will all be over. Despite the fact that I really want this real world, adult, rit free life. I know the change will be good for me even if it is difficult to step into.